Learning to be Kind, Not Judgemental

This is a copy of what I wrote about my thoughts on this month's theme in AA plus. It's quite long.  A LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME & MYSELF Among the examples are: - I beat myself (mentally) for not being as good as the next person. - I tried to do things that others do, not because I want to do it...but because almost everybody are doing it - A never ending effort to find a place where I can feel a sense of belonging, a part of some group while not feeling I belong anywhere or to anyone including myself. - That feeling when I think that I want something so bad, but I really didn't. It is because it 's what I am supposed to want in that particular situation.  - I shied away from many situations or decision because I do not think I am good enough. - I don't think I deserved any of the achievements that I had. I even thought that the exam standard was reduced when I got good grades. . . . the list can go on and on. Assalamualaikum, hi everyone. I have been s...

Ditemani pendiang api yang tak akan padam apinya sampai kita tutup televisyen. Almost reached the first five years milestone of getting to know the person we were married to. All I ever prayed for was The one who will make me closer to Allah. And the one who can make me want to be better. Sometimes the journey together was gentle. Sometimes it was like raging storm. And there are also times when nothing seemed to make sense. But as long as the answer is slowly fulfilling what I prayed for, then I believe it was meant to be. I guess marriage is never easy. But depending on our intention,  it's totally worth it, inshaaAllah. May Allah bless our 'ship Apos My . And may He be pleased with us. #4years

Photo by  Jill Heyer  on  Unsplash Some people may found...or believe that crying is a sign of weakness. I beg to differ. I feel...and I believe that crying is some sort of a cleansing ritual. Proses penyucian, if I may say so. Secara fizikalnya, mata akan bersih daripada debu-debu. Tapi kesannya lebih dalam daripada itu. Bila menangis, hati dan jiwa sedang meratap kepada Tuhan-Nya. Serahkan segala gundah gulana, berat yang menumpang di atas bahu selama ini kepada pemilikNya. Segala rasa yang tidak enak itu, dihumban keluar bersama air mata. And usually, one's heart would feel a little lighter and a little more pure as compared to before. Mata lebih jelas, dada terasa lapang. Feeling stronger, no matter how little and assured that the Creator will be always be listening to His creations. Crying, like any other, if used correctly is a tool for a human to become stronger, spiritually.

Throwback breakfasting at   Cofeology Cafe  yesterday . Love the ambience Love the food (harga berpatutan) And love that they are getting better and better over the years (my 1st time eating here was in 2015). . Paling best sekali sebab dia sambut dari luar pintu kafe. Husband suka kata macam layanan first class. . Me, being pessimistic kata "Mungkin sebab kita the only customer?" . To which he replied "Ya, ada tempat lain even kita je yang ada pun orang kedai buat tak layan aje." . Well I can't argue with that. My favourite would be the warm and comfy ambience the cafe exuded. Rasanya kalau datang buat esenmen atau menulis kat sini memang produktif. Cofeology Cafe ni terletak di Bukit Beruang, Melaka. Berdekatan dengan Multimedia University. Owned by Muslim. Lot 21 & 23 Condomunium Jalan Bukit Beruang Bukit Beruang, Jalan Ixora, 75450 Beruang, Melaka

Senario 1 Seorang wanita berusia 40-an. Belajar tinggi Latar belakang sosioekonomi yang bagus Datang ke klinik payudara Dalam keadaan ketumbuhan pada payudaranya sudah libatkan struktur di sekitarnya (locally advanced) Lambat datang berjumpa doktor Kerana takut nak terima kenyataan Kerana takut suami tinggalkan Senario 2 Wanita-wanita lebih separuh abad Pangkat nenek atau yang sudah tak ada suami. Juga datang dalam keadaan yang sama. Ada ketumbuhan di payudara. Terbiar lama hingga ia 'makan' kawasan sekelilingnya. Lambatnya mereka pula kerana katanya anak-anak sibuk, tak mahu susahkan mereka.   Pada bulan 6 dan 7 tahun ini, hampir 50 peratus wanita yang hadir ke klinik payudara termasuk dalam kategori wanita dalam senario 1 dan 2. Sudah dalam tahap 3, ataupun 4. Mungkin ada antaranya sudah lanjut usia dan mungkin tak terdedah dengan kepentingan untuk buat saringan mammogram supaya dapat mengesan kanser pada tahap awal.  Maka jatuh atas bahu anak anak, generasi celik minda dan ...

Almost reached the end of Breathe. And I realized that I need to read a lot of books. More and more of it. As much as I enjoy to read. I enjoyed writing too. And to write decently, I must have decent vocabs and sentences etched into my brain. So yeah More books please.

“Kebanyakan ujian dan dugaan yang menimpa seorang muslim ialah untuk mengangkat derajatnya, melebur dosa-dosanya, mendahulukan azabnya di dunia sebelum di akhirat.” . •الحبيب عمر بن محمد بن سالم بن حفيظ• Jalan nak dekat pada Pencipta itu tak senang. Ranjau sepanjang jalan. Menapak selangkah, iblis syaitan segerombolan datang tolak kita ke belakang berlangkah-langkah Some people yang pilih untuk kuat berpegang pada talian hayat dengan Dia, akan nampak cahaya yang datang dengan ujian. Unfortunately Ada juga yang pilih untuk bergantung pada manusia yang tak sempurna di keliling, maka terpaling kiblat hati berbisik 'tak jumpa apa yang dicari'. And they lost.