Little Steps #5

 After few days, no more fresh blood, only spotting/staining.

Went for GH TCA. US scan beforehand, alhamdulillah masih ada fetal heart lagi. And everything looks okay.

Kali ni tak berpeluang jumpa Dr M, dapat jumpa MO saja. Review result darah pun okey sahaja alhamdulillah. Tumour markers pun normal. Cyst tu pun - tak ada solution kalau di GH. Dia kurangkan dos Duphaston dan kata boleh naik kerja next week. Tapi rasa tak sedap hati. 

Singgah department sekejap. Tak apalah, kalau dia tak bagi MC, kita sambung sajalah dengan cuti sendiri. And hopefully the staining stops by the end of next week. Mujur kawan-kawan dan bosses sangat supportive.

The next week tu actually ada dua appointments. Satu kat Klinik Desa nak buka buku pink, satu lagi TCA di private. Masa nurse tanya nak sambung TCA kat private ke dah macam berbelah bahagi. Mungkin sambung kat GH je kut, saya balas.

But 2 days later something happened. Hari itu patut ke KD sekali lagi sebab nak ambil darah. Tapi Subuh itu, I noticed that the amount of spotting has increased and ada sedikit fresh blood.

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H kata suruh sambung cuti lagi, tapi macam tak kena pula kalau tak ada sebarang surat ke apa ke. So I decided untuk pergi je appointment private yang SubhanAllah, pada hari yang sama juga. At least, bolehlah nak dapatkan MC - kuat sikit sebab untuk sambung cuti. 

Pakar scan, looks okey. And I told her about the 'threatened abortion' situation and also GH could not do anything about the cyst in this current situation. Then she said;

"Tak apa, I bagi you MC. You follow up dengan I je lah lepas ni, by the time you 13/14 weeks, I buangkan cyst you, pastu I bagi you cuti lama."

She also said that there might be a chance that the cyst is causing the bleeding? But we were not sure. But she would not take any chances to allow the pregnancy to progress while the cyst is still there. She will see us again in 1 week.

On the way back, H and I were solemnly discussing our options. I told H that I have been praying on what to do what is the right thing to do in my conscious moments. And Allah has given us the answer as direct as possible - if we choose not to heed His answer, then we will be among the idiots dan golongan yang rugi lah kan. Walaupun pilihan itu bukanlah pilihan asal yang kita nak pun. 

And so we decided, and we told our family members about it.